whats there to say about a monday… well it sucks. yea sounds about right.

had a weird nightmare, definitely not one i would like to remember. oh well.  6 days til greg comes home! he is playing his last game as a Kelowna Falcon tonight, bittersweet moment. I just hope that he has fun and enjoys his last game. I was so pissed at him earlier tho.  Talking about dreams and he had a dream about kids this time instead of me and it led to me getting pissed off at an assumption he made about me. I was agitated for a great bit of the day, until the mail came and his letter he wrote me came in.  the sweetest thing I’ve ever read and its hard to stay mad at someone after reading a letter like that. lucky duck.. he leaves for his grandparents house in lethbridge in the morning and then the following day will make the drive to Regina.  he said he will be making the long drive from regina to shreveport by himself and that worries the mess out of me. a 28 hr drive, give or take, by himself in two days….. i hope he is careful. he better be careful.

I also got to see kristina and bryant today for a little bit since the power went out all over the neighborhood.  some genius ran into a transformer and some tree branches fell on the power lines.  Brendon has gotten so big and will be a year old in a month and 10 days! seems like yesterday he was first born and i got to hold him. lol. 

I love katie as my roommate.  So cool and fun to hang out with. very laid back also and we get along just great. :) 

i hope everyone else has a decent monday. 

beautiful.

pictures, drawings, paintings aren’t the only things that are allowed to be beautiful in this life. everyone can make their life beautiful in their own eyes as long as they live their life to the fullest. 

typical me to remember that i have one of these and then forget about it for like 10 months at a time. smart cookie. One of these days i will remember to talk in this more  often. 

life has been pretty crazy, trying to maintain a job, study, have a new roommate, help with a couple of weddings, etc….

emily gets married in a little over 2 month, brittany in a little over a year, people having kids all over the place, its kind of chaotic with all this.  oh and it looks like that amanda will be getting engaged by the end of the year since chad has a run for her and is dying to propose already, i wouldn’t be surprised if he tries to propose to her on her birthday, christmas, or new years. oh maybe on their 1 yr anniversary! yea greg and I are no where near that point and won’t be moving that fast at all, well at least he better not. no babies or wedding stuff any time soon for either of us.  speaking of babies, my little nephew will be 11 months old this month.  its crazy to think that almost a year ago i was arriving at school and i got a phone call from bryant saying it looks like your dream is coming true, Brendon Alexzander will be here later today. CRAZY!

FOOTBALL SEASON STARTS IN 6 DAYS! well preseason does anyway, but still, its FOOTBALL!!! AHHHHH! 

greg is supposed to come home from canada in about 9 days, so he says. he is driving home by himself. I am beyond nervous :/ I got to surprise him about a month ago in canada for his best friend’s wedding and he was beyond surprised that I was able to plan that trip for over a month with his mom and best friends and keep it from him.  Best Surprise EVER! if i say so myself. :) 

school unfortunately starts August 20. not looking forward to that, but what I am looking forward to is that fact that I only have 29 more hrs of classes I need to take til I can graduate!!! :D oh I am so beyond happy about that. 5 yrs of undergraduate school is too much, too long. ewww. reminds me, I still have like a bazillion years til i am completely done with school. boo. 

OMG I WANT

i miss him and love him like crazy. :)

senior year of college has started. crazyyy. a month into it and talk about stressful. biochemistry with lab, analytical chemistry with lab, cell biology with lab, physics, and economics. chaos. always studying, never having time for friends. its a mess.

tina and bryant finally had their beautiful baby boy. brendon alexzander bowen, 6lbs 9oz, 19 1/2in at 10:35am on sept 16.  he has his mommy’s nose, but looks just like his daddy.  its crazy to think that he came out of her. it seems like yesterday we were all playing on the jungle gym in elementary school. going on 13 yrs of friendship. wow.

the love life is chaos still. well what love life. its the single life. time to play catch up: so its been months since ive talked to steven, wanted closure for the longest time til i found out he got a girlfriend a few months back(want to say june), dates ive been on have been complete failures with assholes and douchebags. and those that flirt with me at the bar when i work  doesnt make it any better. one of my buds jake s has been hanging out with bryant, BFF’s there, and he tried talking to me and my best friend/sister amanda. i was never into him to begin with and he knows it.  well one night he tried hooking up with him and i straight up turned him down. he felt so bad he told amanda right after it happened before i could tell her.  2 weeks later they show up at the bar together and i simply asked amanda if they were still talking and she said kind of. ok so i decided to be a typical friend and tell jake he better not hurt her. he said he had no plans to.  then i asked him who would he have picked if i had said i was interested. his response was that he wasnt put in that situation. i said that wasnt the point and that he was put in that situation now. his answer was to be honest i dont know.  so i said you would have played with the both of us a little bit longer until you chose which you liked best then screwed the other over. well little ole me decided to tell amanda. and come to find out that jake told amanda that he had picked her from the beginning and that trying to get with me was a mistake.  now either its just me or someone got caught in the lie.  well the next day he texted me and amanda the same message apologizing for his drunk behavior the night before. i told him he was dead to me and he argued that he picked amanda from the beginning. well if you did why try to hook up with me to begin with?!? moron.

now on to the next jake, jake m. old friend from elementary and middle school. part of the old friendship circle. hadnt heard from him in a few years. just know that he is married and has a 1 year old.  well he found me the other day on fb and we played catch up. divorced now, happy with a 1 yr old, planning on visiting later this month.  we texted back and forth for 2 days straight. then a random number texts me asking who i was and i told them then asked who they were and they said they were jake’s fiance’. o.O  crazy. come to find out he is a controlling abusive guy who is engaged to one girl and is still married to the girl he is trying to get the divorce with.  lets just say he wont be visiting me when he is in town, if that happens.  i dont want some abusive psychopathic liar around me.  heck noo.

this past friday was steven’s birthday. hadnt talked to him in a while, but i decided to be nice and wish him a happy birthday thru text and he texted back thank you and i responded with a youre welcome.  a few min later he texted back dont hate me im sorry. talk about a shocker. he was  trying to apologize for what happened back in february. i was fine and dandy until he tried to apologize. all these emotions and memories came flooding back and i lost it. lets just say im not over him. idk when i will be.

other than that, school is crazy. of course. it school. :/

its been so long. the end is near. in a few hours people will be watching the final of the harry potter movies. over 10 years of my life, harry potter has been a part of it. crazy to believe. to be honest, i really dont care too much for it.

my life now consists of school, yes even in the summer, and bartending. one is fun, one is hectic and vice versa. also thinking about writing a book about the hectic drama that has happened since i have started college, anyone and everyone who knows the story up to this point believes it to be a soap opera, and if i were to include bits of my best friends’ stories into it, theirs would add to the soap opera. it would be a best seller, a series, a movie. all of it. you cry, you laugh, you get pissed, you get hyped up, depressed, its intense. but no one cares about the drama, the life of another individual unless published in a magazine or up on a big screen, or was their own. selfish really. then again who isnt. the whole world selfish, and when you think about it, its true. selfish about survival. we focus on ourselves to survive before we ponder the lives of others. thats another story.

well tumblr. its great to be back.

wow, its been too long since ive posted. it feels wierd. sorry tumblr. but im back now with a lot of stuff to catch up on. but not now.

its been a while, i guess i need to play catch up.

over the past weekend was tina & amanda’s 21st birthday.  we went to superiors to celebrate. talk about a chaotic fun time. apparently im the life of the party.  i can honestly say that amanda was lucky that i was drunk bc i dont think i  would have forgiven her that easily for the mistakes made, and its not like she is really trying to hang out with me now or anything. oh well not my problem,. i have best friends that have made up for what she screwed over.  school has been alright, i honesly think that i failed my botany exam from tuesday but he has yet to post grades up which is bogus and makes me very sad. oh well once again.  i started bartending last night for the first time ever and talk about a chaotic frenzy! i loved it.  they say i have lots of potential and i will go far. lol.  it was so much fun talking with people and enjoying music and stuff. cant wait for day 2. :)

today, is thanksgiving, today is a day to be thankful for all that you have and all that others have and to be grateful for everything in this world.  all i can say is that i love my family and friends like there is no tomorrow. today the saints played the cowboys and holy heck what a game.  saints went from a 17-0 lead in the first quarter to a 27-23 cowboys lead to a 30-27 VICTORY with a little over a minute left in the game.. man oh man talk about an adrenaline rush. woo.

but, HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE :)